Found - Cory Emery

I have often joked about not praying that God would teach you patience because He'll generally do it - and you probably won't like how he does it. Generally I follow it up with "I did that, once..." Along with that, praying that God will break you is also dangerous - He'll do it!

I vividly remember the first time I truly felt "broken" for Jesus. I was 17, almost 18. I had spent the summer working at camp, learning how to use horses to share Jesus with kids, in a place that I had come as a camper for years. I had entered the summer thinking I knew it all. I had just graduated from high school, I was headed to a prestigious college, and I knew that camp inside out and backwards. And oh did God use that summer to break me. As a WIT (Wrangler in Training), we were each given a 10+ year old Arab brood mare that had never been ridden, and told that by the end of the summer we were going to ride them.

As we were "breaking" our horses, they taught us about how God does the same thing with us. We would run the horse in circles around the round pen for seemingly forever... until the horse would stop and turn in towards us. The horse learns that if it is with you, and doing what you ask, you let it stop - it can rest with you, catch its breath. Be at peace. But, when it disobeys, or turns away, you make it run... and run... and run... In the end you have a horse that will follow you with its nose glued to your shoulder because it learns that is the safest place to be. I remember the first time my horse followed me around the round pen without a lead line or halter. What a great feeling that was...

I spent a lot of time running that summer, before I learned to turn towards God and rest in Him. The final turning point found me sitting in the middle of the cow pasture with cow pies all around me bawling my eyes out that I was tired of running. I was tired of pretending. I was tired of faking it. And I was tired of trying to make it on my own. I felt a little bad for McCloud (my boss) because I'm pretty sure he had no idea what to do with a crying teenage girl (that he had just totally deservedly yelled at and sent over the edge) - but props to him, he left me alone and let me sort it out with God - because that's what I needed to do.

"Cause I have lost it all, But You found me Lord, My life has all run out, Now I breathe in Yours" - we have to come to the place where we have lost it all, where God has found us, and we can stop running our life, and find peace, resting, with our nose on God's shoulder - breathing in Him.

Pray for God to break you if you dare - because Found is so much better than lost. Walk with Him - follow Him - seek peace in Him. Stop running. Turn in. With Jesus is so much better than the alternatives.



My hands are weak
But You're strong in me
My knees are falling
And I'm falling at Your feet
My lips form words
But the sounds just wont come out
I need you now

Cause I have lost it all
But You found me Lord
My life has all run out
Now I breathe in Yours

My eyes were blind
But You opened them for me
My ears were deaf
But now I hear You perfectly
My legs were lame
But I'm leaping like a deer
And I'll praise You here

Cause I have lost it all
But You found me Lord
My life has all run out
Now I breathe in Yours
Yeah! I have lost it all
But You found me Lord
(you find me)
My life has all run out
Now I breathe in Yours
I breathe in Yours