I'm not even sure where to start in talking about this song. Other than to say that it has left me completely bawling several times over the last week or so. I'm not sure at what point in my life I decided that I always needed to have it together - that it wasn't ok to cry. But I know it was early on. And I think in general we do a lousy job of telling kids that it is ok to fall apart. We reward them for their "toughness" or for how well they "buck up" and deal with things. But we also need to give them the space and permission to fall apart. To grieve. To cry when they need to.
It's okay to cry
It's okay to fall apart
You don't have to try
To be strong when you are not
And it may take sometime to make sense of all your thoughts
But don't ever fight your tears
'Cause there is freedom in every drop
Sometimes the only way to heal a broken heart is when we fall apart
I'm not even sure I like this song. As someone who fights tears tooth and nail, who holds it all together all the time I'm not sure I want to be that vulnerable. And certainly not in front of someone else. I really wanted to learn to play this song - and so I waited until the house was completely empty, turned the song on, picked up my guitar, and proceeded to ugly cry all by myself. (like eyes burning, snot dripping UGLY cry, y'all) What's funny is I'm not even sure why I was crying - I wasn't sad. I wasn't mad. I'm not in pain. I think the very act of singing about the freedom to cry was liberating and freeing in a way that my body knew what to do even if my brain didn't.
And you've got the gift of mercy
Don't ever think it's strange
Not a curse, but it is a blessing to feel other people's pain
And always love without condition
And trust with all your heart
There's healing in the story of your scars
When you love without condition and trust with all your heart there are times when you will end up with scars. Relationships with people are messy. And dealing with other people's pain hurts. But without it we won't find the healing that we seek.
Sometimes the only way to heal a broken heart is when we fall apart.
Fall apart. Just do it. Don't ever fight your tears. Let them fall. And remember that Psalm 56:8 says "You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book." God sees you, and knows you, and loves you. Even when we fall apart. Or maybe especially then.
You were 43 when you got the news
Life will be changing, nothing we can do
The clock is ticking now
All I can think about
Is knowing I have to move on without you somehow
And I just can't believe
That you're the one whose keeping it together
As you hold my hand and say
It's okay to cry
It's okay to fall apart
You don't have to try
To be strong when you are not
And it may take sometime to make sense of all your thoughts
But don't ever fight your tears
'Cause there is freedom in every drop
Sometimes the only way to heal a broken heart is when we fall apart
You ask me to sing
Some songs that I wrote
But I can barely speak
Can barely play a note
All my tears rush in
Falling on my strings
And make the sound of these progressions have a different ring
And I hate to say goodbye
Knowing this will be the last time we're together
As you close your eyes and say
It's okay to cry
It's okay to fall apart
You don't have to try
To be strong when you are not
And it may take sometime to make sense of all your thoughts
But don't ever fight your tears
'Cause there is freedom in every drop
Sometimes the only way to heal a broken heart is when we fall apart
And you've got the gift of mercy
Don't ever think it's strange
Not a curse, but it is a blessing to feel other people's pain
And always love without condition
And trust with all your heart
There's healing in the story of your scars
Well, it's been awhile
Since you've been gone
Sometimes I still catch myself trying to call your phone
All the hopes and dreams we used to talk about
They're still alive in me and I just hope I make you proud
Now I'm your legacy
And it's your love still holding me together
And I still hear you say
It's okay to cry
It's okay to fall apart
You don't have to try
To be strong when you are not
And it may take sometime to make sense of all your thoughts
But don't ever fight your tears
'Cause there is freedom in every drop
Sometimes the only way to heal a broken heart is when we fall apart
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