I Haven't Either - Andy Gullahorn

I first heard about this song from a book someone wrote about writing and creating things (music, books, etc). He talked about how when he has gone on tour with Andy Gullahorn there is always this moment where he enjoys watching the audience as they get drawn into the song and then get sucker punched by where it lands.

It's funny, because I don't know that I get hit hard by where the song lands, I get hit by where the song starts. Because I know that is absolutely me!

Have you ever been so selfish

that you let your baby cry

While you finished up a video game?

I haven’t either

That’s pretty bad

Further, I know that I have been one of those people who isn't completely sincere on far far too many occasions. It's my goal to be honest. It's my goal to be real. But then you get into that one situation with that one group of people and... lies, performance, desire to look good - they take over.

Who am I kidding?

Who am I kidding?

I am just like them

No, I’m only kidding

Have you ever felt compelled to get a weight off of your chest

But can’t follow through because you are ashamed?

I’ve heard that you can tell the ones who truly open up

Their lives are marked with freedom and with peace

I don’t have either

No I haven’t either

A life marked with freedom and with peace. Jesus, help me to be open and honest. That I could have freedom and peace marking my life!

Have you ever been so selfish

that you let your baby cry

While you finished up a video game?

I haven’t either

That’s pretty bad

But have you ever stretched the truth

telling stories to your friends

So they’d be a little bit more amazed?

I haven’t either

I’d never do that

But there are some people out there

Who aren’t completely sincere

What they show in the daylight

Is not exactly what’s inside

It’s a form of protection

From being rejected

But you and I can be so glad

We are not like that

Have you ever made a promise 

to yourself a thousand times

Just to break it over and over again?

I haven’t either

Only people with problems do that sort of thing

But have you been so full of doubt that you

just can’t pray to God

Because you wonder if He even exists?

I haven’t either

Who am I kidding?

Who am I kidding?

I am just like them

No, I’m only kidding

Have you ever felt compelled to get a weight off of your chest

But can’t follow through because you are ashamed?

I’ve heard that you can tell the ones who truly open up

Their lives are marked with freedom and with peace

I don’t have either

No I haven’t either